Mena Suvari was “fortunate” to outlive years of “repeated sexual abuse” which led to her dependancy to medicine.
The American Magnificence star, who shot to fame taking part in cheerleader Angela within the 1999 film, has detailed the trauma she skilled earlier than her breakthrough movie in her new guide, The Nice Peace: A Memoir.
In a chat with Folks, Suvari revealed she was hiding the reality of the horrible trauma she was coping with.
“I used to be dwelling a double life,” the 42-year-old instructed the publication. “Each time I’d go on a set. Each time I used to be interviewed, I used to be performing the entire time. It was one other function for me to play. That I used to be okay.”
In an excerpt from the guide, she wrote, “Between the ages of 12 and 20, I used to be the sufferer of repeated sexual abuse.”
Mena detailed how she was raped by a buddy of one in every of her older brothers, whom she refers to as “KJ” within the guide, was coerced right into a sexual relationship with a supervisor, whom she noticed as a protector, on the age of 15, and was sexually and emotionally abused by a former boyfriend, named “Tyler” whom she met simply earlier than she turned 17. Throughout the three-year relationship, Tyler pressured her to take part in threesomes and choose up girls to convey dwelling for him.
“No, I do not wish to try this,” she recalled telling KJ, who was pressuring her to have intercourse, till at some point, he introduced her to a non-public room in his household’s dwelling, the place he raped her.
“A part of me died that day,” she said. “He used me, had enjoyable with me, after which disposed of me. He referred to as me a w**re.
“I by no means acquired to have a wholesome expression of (intercourse). My alternative was misplaced. And that, compiled with already not feeling seen and heard, established an idea that I’d have of myself. That that was my worth.”
Quickly after, Suvari started taking medicine to numb the ache.
“I turned to any type of self-medicating I may discover, simply to get by,” the actress shared. “I used to be simply attempting to outlive.”
Suvari finally broke it off with Tyler and stopped utilizing medicine – and with the assistance of remedy and supportive mates, started to regain her confidence.
In 2016, she met her now-husband, Mike Hope, on the set of her Hallmark film I will Be Dwelling For Christmas. The couple married two years later and have a son named Christopher, who was born April 2021.
Now, Suvari hopes that by sharing her experiences, she can assist others who’ve suffered.
“I hope I can assist another person see their worth,” she added. “If I can reduce the ache for another person, then I wish to do it, as a result of I did not have that individual.”